So it has been awhile since my last post. The Hawaii trip last November was very nice. It was relaxing and took me away from my routine which was awesome. Since then, there has been a fair amount of news.

I had a PET scan at the end of December. The results were mixed, with the right side of the liver showing some shrinking and reduced activity, but the left side showed more activity in the existing sites. There was no indication of any spreading, so overall the news was good. Since the months leading up to that scan had inconsistent treatments due to my travel and the holidays, we decided to continue with the current FOLFIRI treatment and try to avoid any interruptions in the schedule for awhile.

Isabella is still doing fine. She needs the fluids several times a week and always will, but overall she has not urinated anywhere other than the litter box in many months and although begrudgingly, she is eating the food her doctor prescribed.

I promised from the start to use this blog both to inform my friends and family of my progress, and as a record of the same, so honesty is essential. I will admit here that in the last week I have gotten a little down. Mostly I am weary of the process, and more so since we have no next event to be working toward. At this point we will continue with the chemo as long as it is working and until the cancer is gone. That is a very amorphous goal, made more vague since the only marker of progress that I have is the PET scans that we do every 3-4 months. So between status updates, I have 6 or 7 treatments and all of the associated side effects. In no way am I getting depressed or feeling that I will not beat this, but there is a general weariness that naturally sets in. I guess for me it was the 2 year point. I have been in treatment now (Chemotherapy) off and on for 2 years.

I had treatment this past week and it went as usual. I slept most of yesterday (Saturday) away, and am currently at my local(ish) coffee shop writing this entry while enjoying a Cappuccino.  I am hopeful that getting a regular exercise regime in place will help with the emotional toll. The key will be overcoming the inertia that has set in making it hard to find the gumption to start anything.

So that was my honest assessment of my current mental and emotional state. I have a tremendous amount of support from friends and neighbors here, and family from afar. I am certain that i will work past this. I guess part of my sharing here is for anyone who may stumble across this blog that is going through the same thing. I am certain that it is a normal thing to feel, and if I find a silver bullet to address it, I will post in the future.

Cheers